I’ve been trying so very hard to not think about things and “go with the flow” until scan day which is a week today. It’s so hard but I have been trying my best to keep busy and think about other things.
As I said before, I think the lack of symptoms have massively contributed to my disbelief at the positive beta, so it was heartening to start to get a few symptoms:
- feeling like I have a massive head cold (headache, unquenchable thirst, tiredness, nausea, inability to think straight / count – yes I actually had to think hard about what number comes between 5 & 7). Ok so I could actually just have a massive head cold, but I’m hoping it is a good sign.
- inflated (and growing) boobs, and oh boy they hurt! I’m hoping that this means something more than the cyclogest is at work.
Well I say that these symptoms were heartening, that was until this morning when I had some bleeding. It was dark “old blood” which is better than bright red blood, but still it’s a nasty shock. Since then I’ve started to feel a bit crampy again so the fear and worry is starting to build. Realistically I know there’s not much I can do apart from keep on taking the meds and see what happens but it’s such a crappy feeling.